I’m not good at telling someone I hurt;
    Not good at telling another soul there is woundedness, deep in my soul.

Perhaps, it’s because I’m not as open and transparent as I ought to be?
    Or, maybe I’m too proud? Or shamed or ashamed? 
I’m not really sure about the ‘why’ of my reticent life.

I only know that there are those days.
    And the daze wrapped around my sorrow-filled life becomes an overwhelming suffocation. 
        I feel I can hardly manage what seems like a long walk toward nowhere..
When those days come, I have noticed a sad and truthful truth:
        I’m not good at telling some other human being that
            My inner most man, my inmost being feels broken, or wounded, or spent.

How does one learn such things, I wonder?

How does one pilgrim on his journey tell another along the path
    That his road seems narrowed, and bumpy, and crooked besides?
              How does a person share the load with others, when they all have loads of their own to                               manage, and lift, and survive?

Perhaps, one day I will learn how to share my journey. But, in the meantime,

Thank God … for God.
    The One who knows before I speak.
        Who hears, before I say.
            Who understands, when I do not.

Yes. Thank God … for God.

“He who dwells in the secret place of the Most High Shall abide under the shadow of the Almighty. I will say of the Lord, “He is my refuge and my fortress; My God, in Him I will trust.” Surely He shall deliver you from the snare of the fowler, And from the perilous pestilence.” (Ps. 91:1)

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  1. Pastor Ken,

    Your eloquently written words spoke deeply to my heart. Thank you for your openness and vulnerability, and for sharing your beautiful writings. You truly blessed me tonight.

    May God richly bless you,

    Laurie Scott

    1. Laurie, I trust all is well with you and your lovely family. And thank you for your kind words. I’m trying to be a bit more faithful in my postings. I hope they will encourage you and others along the journey with Him.

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